Nervous Breakdown in 5...4...3...2....

I have no idea what is wrong with me. Seriously, I really don't want to sleep for some reason. Sleeping is epitomizing evil now. I have no why idea though. Its so creepy and it is freaking my out. I think I am going to have a nervous breakdown or something bad is going to happen. I keep having these weird dreams where all I do is keep taking showers over and over. When I get out the showers I SCRUB my hands and then go back in the shower. I believe it because I feel I need to cleanse myself of sins. The problem is I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING. I don't know whats wrong with me anymore seriously. I think I am relating a little TOO much to Perks of Being a Wallflower. I think I have some acute form of some disease. It would explain alot. OCD perhaps? Something isn’t right and I pray to god I find out what it is. 

So people aren't totally depressed by this entry. Some "highlights" for the day. 
-Cleaned my room again after being awakened from the shower dream at 6:00
-Made more disco cds
-Bought the VM dvds
-Bought a book called Freakonomics I will tell you how it is when I finish it in a day or so
-Finished Perks for the millionth time. Its sad thats my favorite considering how depressing it is. Almost every book I've read this summer involved Rape, Pedophilia or Suicide. Everyone had at least 2. Perks has all 3! Yay?

Yes this entry still is kind of depressing. Sue Me.

I also had this whole rant prepared about guys writing songs for girls but I just can't deliever it with my current state of mind. 

Katie by Jack's Mannequin/SoCo just came on. It makes me feel better.