I'm done

didn't get a part in the play.


In true Viviana Fashion I didn't get what I wanted.


By the time I was playing Hurt by Johnny Cash my mom came in asked me what was wrong did the usual blah promise this and that to make me feel better ... It didn't. I cried AGAIN I cry more than effin Charlie. Maybe I should really stop wanting things like the Monks. I obviously I don’t get the things I want. I believe in so many things I should stop because obviously they don’t get me anywhere. I should stop making wishes at 11:11 or any other time with all the digits are the same. I should stop believing the good guy always wins or that because I am good kid and do what I am told I am entitled to having some good things happen. I blame on those fuckin Disney movies telling us when were little, good guy always wins and the planets always align in your favor. They don't, they never do its all bullshit.  It really isn't worth it; I've stopped caring its official. I won't care about anything anymore because if you don't care you don't get mad or hurt when it lets you down or rejects you. Rejection what an oh so common theme in my life. I am sick of it, sick of it all. I am sick of the kids who treat their parents like shit and still get everything they want. I am sick of people who don't give a fuck and STILL get everything. I hate this, I hate this so much. Whatever I am done.


I suck at life. 


I am going to go fuckin mope and wonder why I blow at everything. 

Probably will suck at that too.

So please forgive what I have done
No, you can't stay mad at the setting sun
We all get tired, I mean, eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep