Street Map

I know its early but I have to update. I am updating about this song called Street Map by Athlete and I cant stop listening to it. It reminds me alot of stuff I would listen to last year when I was still Hopelesslyinlove!Viviana. Now I am more "What the fuck is a crush?". I just can't stop listening to it. It is so much better with headphones and if you do listen with headphones just close your eyes and REALLY listen. I don't know why it just really strikes a cord with me. Maybe it is inner Hopelesslyinlove!Viviana who wants song that doesn't involve revenge or just sadness. This is crazy I want to stop but I can't. This is really like Liza with Boston.

Quote
One day it's gonna happen
I don't know when
I'll be on your street
But i know one day it's gonna happen
You're gonna be swept off your feet

I'll be on your street

Recap of the day
1st Period
Austin and I finally discussed last year, the year in which he chose his skanky girlfriend over me.
Austin: Why are you being so mean to me lately?
Me: What are you talking about? I haven't been mean to you (That’s such a lie but I really haven't been THAT mean to him)
SO BLAH BLAH BLAH 
Me: You are always mean to me
Austin: What are you talking about? Give me an example
Me: How bout last year
Austin: What are you talking about? We didn't even talk last year.
Me: EXACTLY!!! because you decided to chose skank face over me
Austin: I didn't choose skank face ( yes he called her skank face also) over you
Me: Um yes you did I clearly remember it
Austin: Well she didn't want me talking to you
Me: Um why? 
Austin: Because she thought we would hook up she said "I don't you hanging out with her I don't trust you" Can you believe that me and you? Seriously we are like brother and sister
Me: Obviously she doesn't know me if she thinks I would hook up with you.
Austin: I know right

So that is about it. I am kinda glad we sorta talked about it. I really don't think he understood how much it hurt me last year when he did that. When you have someone flat out say I chose this person over you it hurts. Maybe that is why I am meaner to him. Maybe its my subconscious taking revenge. Maybe I am trying to keep it at a distance so I won't be hurt again. Maybe I am just a fuckin bitch. I really don't know. 

2nd Period
Test= Me sucking at it

3rd Period
 EGAN!!!! It was so cute Egan was talking about Kiss and relating it to literary terms and he just stopped and went “Where am I going with this?" Also asked if Christina lived in a cave.

4th Period
Gym = Shitty when I am on the team where no one sees me

5th Period
Lunch

6th Period
Math Jamie tells me a couple girls said he looked like the lead singer of TBS. He also has Brand New and Dashboard confessional tickets. I am super jealous.

7TH period
Egan!!! AGAIN! We finished One Flew over the Cuckoo's Nest. Great Book...GO READ IT

8th period
Spanish Ummm Nothing really. Oh! Elana kept making me laugh because she kept doing impressions of the people with Tourettes syndrome in the MTV commercial and I would laugh then go "Stop it. That is so mean." I really can't help it though I feel REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY bad for laughing but Its just TOO good.

9th period
DR. CRAZY NUFF SAID

After school I got into a fight with my brother. He is being an ass. I always get in trouble because that is how things are. I shouldn't stoop so low. My parents always want me to be the bigger person and sometimes I just can't. I can't deal with being the more mature sometimes. I like to be the little sister once in a while. I know soon enough I will apologize because guilt will consume me. I love the kid I really do. He knows it, I know it, and everyone knows it. I can't stand him sometimes.


BTW Still listening to Street Map

Last night at around 10ish the play count was at 9 now from Laguna Beach and Two a days commerical breaks only I got up to 20 something I am now up to 40ish. So I am moving on up!