The storm is coming

I feel kind of like an empty shell. I feel as if I don't have presence anymore. You know the whole talking but no sound thing? Well that is how I feel but not just with talking but with my presence in general. People don't see me anymore. I want to have faith. I want to have faith in myself and the world so bad. It’s not an easy task. I want to believe in things that don't give me reason. I can't though. It drives me crazy. I need a sign, some divine change, or calling or something.  I just want the world to see me again and I want to feel like I fit in someone's world. In any world. I hate this whole outside looking in thing. It is so cliché. What if I just don't belong?