Now I’m left here dying in the sun

it’s just hard to look at all the seasons pass me over too
and I said
Seems like I’m always on my own
Seems like I’m never coming home
Seems like I’m always on my own
*Augustana

I was just studying for my math midterm and this song came up. Its exactly how I feel. No place is home anymore. I am starting to find home less and less in my friends. They are really trying to keep me close and I want to be there with them. I want to be in the group but I don't feel it. I feel so alone all the time. Its almost getting too much to deal with. I know you guys don't like reading these depressing entires but this is the only place that I can talk about how I really feel. I don't have any where else. I can't talk about it with my friends because I feel as if I am burdening them or that I am crazy for feeling the things I do. My mother doesn't believe the way I feel. She thinks it has to do with hormones or something. When she said that today I got really mad at her. I told her off. She then asked if I wanted to still see someone about and I told her yes but I was adamant about it being outside of school. People see me differently at school. They see me as okay and I don't want to give that up.  I can imagine why she doesn't really want to face up to the fact that I'm unhappy but its not going to go away.  My dad hasn't asked about it since that night. I know for a fact he never will. That is how my father is though. He always has been and always will be. I just want to have faith that things will get better.

My Babies of the 80s err 90s

( 90s Kid Survey. )