Last call for sin

I realized after Lauren, The Killers are definitely my favorite Mormons. It’s a known fact that I am a Catholic. What is not a known fact is that I haven't been to church in over six months.  Once I started feeling really depressed, I suddenly became very afraid of God. I can't bring myself to go to church. My family goes to church most Sundays but I make excuses. I can't really bring myself to be in a church knowing that I have lost so much faith. The hard part about being religious is that you are kinda expected to have a blind faith. I have faith in next to nothing and it’s exceedingly hard to have faith in something "just because". I really want to be "saved" but I'm not ready to face God yet. I'm not ready to be asked to be forgiven. I haven't forgiven myself yet, so how can I expect God to forgive me. If I did go to church I would feel as if I am just there for the wrong reasons. I would be there out of obligation which I don't think is a good reason to go to church and anyone who does go out of obligation shouldn't go at all.  This is where the Killers come about. I really needed a song about redemption and such and because iTunes always knows what I needs BAM All the things I have done came on.  I have to figure out a way to get the courage to ask God to help me help myself.  I just don't know how.

When there's nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
One more son
If you can hold on
If you can hold on, hold on

I wanna stand up, I wanna let go
You know, you know - no you don't, you don't
I wanna shine on in the hearts of men
I want a meaning from the back of my broken hand

Another head aches, another heart breaks
I am so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection, no no no no

Help me out
Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the backburner
You know you got to help me out, yeah

And when there's nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
These changes ain't changing me
The cold-hearted boy I used to be

Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the backburner
You know you got to help me out, yeah
You're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down

I got soul, but I'm not a soldier (x10)

(Time, truth and hearts)

Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the backburner
You know you got to help me ou, yeah
You're gonna bring yourself down, yeah
You're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the backburner
You're gonna bring yourself down, yeah
You're gonna bring yourself down

Over and out, last call for sin
While everyone's lost, the battle is won
With all these things that I've done
All these things that I've done
(Time, truth and hearts)
If you can hold on
If you can hold on

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