you always said destiny would blow me away

I feel like utter shit. I want to bash my own face I don't know whether to scream or cry or just oddly somehow barf. I spend over 13 hours in school everyday this week and it is really taking its toll on me. When I do finally get home my mom is always talking about my sweet 16 (the one I don't want). I can't ever just be left to relax. Even when I am having fun at drama club I kinda have to put on my act which I hate. I hate to put on ConstantJokey!Viviana but I have to. No one likes SuperMellowBorderlineBoring!Viviana although she is far more comfortable to be. Its just hard to be, you know, on all the time.