All I needed was the love you gave, All i needed for another day, All i ever knew only you

I feel quite unappealing. According to Brittany I am not unappealing I am just scary. That doesn't make me feel any better. I have never been the girl guys want. Sure the girl they talk to when asking about my friend. Or the girl they go to when they can't remember a superhero's real name. Or the girl they go to when they need answers for the school task at hand. It would be nice once to be the girl guys liked or they would ask my friends about me. Sorry this is so teen cliché but goddamn it, it would be nice to feel wanted once in a while. I don't think i am that bad of person. Sure I may not be the most aesthetically pleasing but I would give someone the shirt off my back. I try to be nice to everyone. I try to remember everyone's birthday because i never want one person to think that they aren't special because no one remembered their birthday. I will listen to other people's ideas and beliefs and i never find mine superior. I have a good sense of humor. So what is it? What is it that just sends everyone to the hills when they encounter me? Or what is it about me that gets me the express train to the "friend zone"?  I really wish someone would explain it to me. 

You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
*Radiohead