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Sorry I haven't updated in a million years. Last weekend I went to something called HOBY. It was a leadership conference. I had so much FUN. We did all these cheers and were screaming 24/7. I made so many friends. I am pretty outgoing so just imagine 200 other energetic, positive, outgoing kids. It was a big party. We were only there for 2 1/2 days but once you left you missed everyone so much. We all had dorm rooms pretty near each other at a college, so you felt all collegiate. It was a life changing experience and if you don't experience it you will never understand. I wish I could word it better.
This week my heart monitor came in. It was terribly sad. They had an instruction booklet and everyone on it was 70 easy. I had to call the company to set it up. My mom was in the room watching me put it on. So she started crying. I guess its never easier watch your kid put on something for geriatrics. I didn't want kids at school to know about it because the first question they always ask is "Are you going to die?" Some found out and still asked. It makes me rather uncomfortable. I don't want people to see me as vulnerable. Once they do, it always stays that way. The looming idea that I'm sickly bothers me.
Yesterday, we went mini golfing. My mom thinks I am upset that I don't have a boyfriend. It's not that, its just that sometimes it kinda bothers me that when I am with my friends I am the last girl guys look at. I understand its stupid. It is kinda bothersome when my friends are all "Lets go to the mall and look for guys" or other crap like that. I feel like saying "Why so I can watch you guys get hit on?" I still go though. I don't know by next week I will read this and think I was on Acid.
This week my heart monitor came in. It was terribly sad. They had an instruction booklet and everyone on it was 70 easy. I had to call the company to set it up. My mom was in the room watching me put it on. So she started crying. I guess its never easier watch your kid put on something for geriatrics. I didn't want kids at school to know about it because the first question they always ask is "Are you going to die?" Some found out and still asked. It makes me rather uncomfortable. I don't want people to see me as vulnerable. Once they do, it always stays that way. The looming idea that I'm sickly bothers me.
Yesterday, we went mini golfing. My mom thinks I am upset that I don't have a boyfriend. It's not that, its just that sometimes it kinda bothers me that when I am with my friends I am the last girl guys look at. I understand its stupid. It is kinda bothersome when my friends are all "Lets go to the mall and look for guys" or other crap like that. I feel like saying "Why so I can watch you guys get hit on?" I still go though. I don't know by next week I will read this and think I was on Acid.
Yearbooks came in a couple of days ago. I never buy them. I signed a whole bunch. I figured out if you put a nice thing or two and then quote a song, it looks pretty good. Its still weird thinking that Jillian and Lauren will be graduating. Your friends are your friends. You don’t realize that sometimes they will move on in life before you. You realize that not everybody’s life changes at the time.
BTW I still need Graduation songs. Any suggestions PLEASE COMMENT!
PS COURTNEY AND LAUREN I MISS YOU DEARLY! COME BACK TO ME LOVES!
