I'll come back for another year

Then Labor day came and went
And we shed what was left of our summer skin 

The first song that came up on my Mp3 player after neglecting it all summer. Death Cab's Summer Skin was appropriate. I don't really like school this year. I feel really alone and detached from everyone. I am over my head in my math class. I never see Dana, Brittany or Jenn. My schedule sucks. I am already unhappy with the year and it just started.  
I feel sick. Literally, not figuratively. I have to work today. Steven is going to be there. He hasn't contacted me since the movies. That pretty much means REJECTION. It wouldn't be the first time. In a way I'm really not upset but in a way I totally am. I am because we went to the movies together which means he had some interest in me but after getting to know me he CHOSE not to get to know me more. In another way I'm not because it wasn't going to go anywhere and that’s how things happen. I've been in third place my whole life. Third place doesn't get a prize if so it’s a watered down one. Third place gets a slap on the back and said to "Hey, almost kid" 

That's what it’s like all the time. So I am going to end this quasi-sad yet factual entry with another Death Cab quote. 

And I'll sit and wonder
Of every love that could've been
If I'd only thought of something charming to say.