Courtney Brooker aka ![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
inevitable012 is finally here in New York. Alina and I went to pick her up at the airport with a sweet sign I made and some American flags. I slept over Alina's house with them. It was a tad wierd considering they are dating. The next day we hung out. I was starting to get pissy because Alina doesn't contribute anything or even speak. She isn't social at all. Its so annoying. She doesn't contribute anything. I am going to be brutally honest the only reason I started talking to her was because she came out and I felt bad that she might feel lonely. So I hooked her up with Courtney so they could talk about similar experiences. I didn't think they would start dating. Part of me thinks in true best friend fashion I won't ever think anyone is good enough. I have been friends with Courtney for a little over two years and I can tell her everything. I am not really friends with Alina and her sister. So I have a hard time understanding the match.
Patrick, Jamie, Natalia, Courtney and Alina came to hang out. I was a litte crabby because I made it pretty obvious I wanted to hang out with Courtney without her there. She still showed up, acted huffy and boring, and then slept. Like WTF don't come to my house uninvited and sleep. Alina had to go play soccer so she left. We had a fun time telling Courtney stories and saying ignorant America things. Then Alina came back did nothing and left to play basketball. Each time she left I made it kinda crystal clear that I didn't want her back. She is a nice girl but she should understand that I want to spend time with Courtney without her. I get that since they are dating they want to do things together but I hope Alina will get that just because they are dating doesnt mean she has to come ALL THE TIME.
Dana dates Danny but I hardly see Danny. Maybe I am jumping the gun with this rant. Maybe after a couple of days the sheen will wear off and they will spend some time apart. I am probably overreacting because I am having "women's problems". But I can't help fear that I am going to be shafted again and become the third wheel. I have been all the way up to the 11th wheel. It really hurts. I just don't want another best friend to leave me.
The only person who hasn't left me is Dana. She made it her job to make sure I didn't feel left out with her and Danny. I don't if I ever told her how much it meant to me but it did. So much.
inevitable012 is finally here in New York. Alina and I went to pick her up at the airport with a sweet sign I made and some American flags. I slept over Alina's house with them. It was a tad wierd considering they are dating. The next day we hung out. I was starting to get pissy because Alina doesn't contribute anything or even speak. She isn't social at all. Its so annoying. She doesn't contribute anything. I am going to be brutally honest the only reason I started talking to her was because she came out and I felt bad that she might feel lonely. So I hooked her up with Courtney so they could talk about similar experiences. I didn't think they would start dating. Part of me thinks in true best friend fashion I won't ever think anyone is good enough. I have been friends with Courtney for a little over two years and I can tell her everything. I am not really friends with Alina and her sister. So I have a hard time understanding the match. Patrick, Jamie, Natalia, Courtney and Alina came to hang out. I was a litte crabby because I made it pretty obvious I wanted to hang out with Courtney without her there. She still showed up, acted huffy and boring, and then slept. Like WTF don't come to my house uninvited and sleep. Alina had to go play soccer so she left. We had a fun time telling Courtney stories and saying ignorant America things. Then Alina came back did nothing and left to play basketball. Each time she left I made it kinda crystal clear that I didn't want her back. She is a nice girl but she should understand that I want to spend time with Courtney without her. I get that since they are dating they want to do things together but I hope Alina will get that just because they are dating doesnt mean she has to come ALL THE TIME.
Dana dates Danny but I hardly see Danny. Maybe I am jumping the gun with this rant. Maybe after a couple of days the sheen will wear off and they will spend some time apart. I am probably overreacting because I am having "women's problems". But I can't help fear that I am going to be shafted again and become the third wheel. I have been all the way up to the 11th wheel. It really hurts. I just don't want another best friend to leave me.
The only person who hasn't left me is Dana. She made it her job to make sure I didn't feel left out with her and Danny. I don't if I ever told her how much it meant to me but it did. So much.
