With this bird I'll share this lonely view

I've tried to update tons of times but it never happens. I have been pretty down in the dumps lately. I really need a friend right now. No one is really there to be that for me. I also miss being friends to other people but i am not needed. No one needs me. My parents and everyone has been really getting me down.  They just have been pointing out my flaws like crazy. I have been trying so hard to be a better person but when people act like that it makes you less motivated. I haven't felt this depressed in a while. I cry all the time now. I am on the edge right now. I just need someone to pull me back. I really am having a hard time. At home I feel so outcasted and school is even worse. Dana has a new boyfriend. Justin is always so mean to me. Austin and I never talk anymore. I talk more to the teachers than to the other kids. I am never online anymore because Lauren is busy so we can't talk. Summer is rarely on. Courtney isn't even my fucking friend anymore and wants nothing to do with my pathetic self so whats the point of even being on if no one is going to speak to me. It has to get better. It just has to. It can't any worse. I am falling fast down a pit.