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Jan. 22nd, 2009 10:04 pmOMG No Doubt is going on tour again.
THANK YOU GOD!
I may have a new feller in the wings. We have hung out a couple of times. He has never had a girlfriend or even been kissed. He also happens to be quite good looking. However, He has sketched out on twice. He seems really inexperienced and like he doesn't 100% understand how girls work. He is sometimes really sweet and he is honest its refreshing. Other times I don't know if he knows how to go about things. He says he wants a girlfriend and things like that but he doesn't seem to be trying hard. He will ask me to hang out, but doesn't try to hold my hand and isn't flirty parse. He is just really genuine and he makes me laugh. I think he is kinda like me in the sense that I have never really known how to play the "game" so I get thrown in the friends zone. But its frustrating to be on the other end. I know he doesn't just want to be friends but I am pretty sure he doesn't know how to go about it. I don't really know how to propel things either. It is really foreign to me. I am never the dominant one in these situations, I kinda get lead around usually. I don't know what to do.
I also talked to Courtney (I know right? Of all people) about how I don't want a boyfriend or commitment right now. I just want someone to talk to, who likes the same things as I do, who can make me laugh. I don't want someone up my butt or wants to know what I am feeling all the time. I want someone but I don't want THE ONE. Does that make sense?
Yeah, I didn't think so.
I have also recently become inspired by a Sunset Rubdown song. I might do a soundtrack for another unwritten movie. I have really been mix-blocked for a while, but a lot of things have changed as of late and I think I might actually be able to finish one. I have been feel really in transition lately. I am between who I am and who I can see myself becoming. I feel like I am going through an emotional puberty. I feel like my heart is too big for my body and my spine too small. My sadness too bloated and my anger too blotchy. I hope everything works itself out. I hope my happiness grows into a nice C Cup. ;). (PS I don't, at all, take that emotional puberty metaphor serious).(PPS I will never be a C Cup in anything).
THANK YOU GOD!
I may have a new feller in the wings. We have hung out a couple of times. He has never had a girlfriend or even been kissed. He also happens to be quite good looking. However, He has sketched out on twice. He seems really inexperienced and like he doesn't 100% understand how girls work. He is sometimes really sweet and he is honest its refreshing. Other times I don't know if he knows how to go about things. He says he wants a girlfriend and things like that but he doesn't seem to be trying hard. He will ask me to hang out, but doesn't try to hold my hand and isn't flirty parse. He is just really genuine and he makes me laugh. I think he is kinda like me in the sense that I have never really known how to play the "game" so I get thrown in the friends zone. But its frustrating to be on the other end. I know he doesn't just want to be friends but I am pretty sure he doesn't know how to go about it. I don't really know how to propel things either. It is really foreign to me. I am never the dominant one in these situations, I kinda get lead around usually. I don't know what to do.
I also talked to Courtney (I know right? Of all people) about how I don't want a boyfriend or commitment right now. I just want someone to talk to, who likes the same things as I do, who can make me laugh. I don't want someone up my butt or wants to know what I am feeling all the time. I want someone but I don't want THE ONE. Does that make sense?
Yeah, I didn't think so.
I have also recently become inspired by a Sunset Rubdown song. I might do a soundtrack for another unwritten movie. I have really been mix-blocked for a while, but a lot of things have changed as of late and I think I might actually be able to finish one. I have been feel really in transition lately. I am between who I am and who I can see myself becoming. I feel like I am going through an emotional puberty. I feel like my heart is too big for my body and my spine too small. My sadness too bloated and my anger too blotchy. I hope everything works itself out. I hope my happiness grows into a nice C Cup. ;). (PS I don't, at all, take that emotional puberty metaphor serious).(PPS I will never be a C Cup in anything).
