Do you ever get the fear that your perfect verse is a lie?

My play was this past weekend and it went really well considering during hell week I was like "its going to fucking suck!!!" It is kinda weird to know I will never act again. Jillian, Sarah Horton, and Caelyn met up with me afterwards the show. It felt like old times eating with them at friendly's. Except we were different versions of ourselves. Not in a bad way just different, dare I say it older. It was kinda like when they do flash forwards on series finales only we didn't have wrinkles and cardigans.

My dad has been really making an effort to connect with me. Last Sunday we took Cooper out for his first walk (it has been super cold). It was nice just walking and talking with him. He has been showing a real interest in my life. We went to see Watchmen. We were chucking at the constant blue penis. He was like "If I see this guy's pecker one more time I am leaving."

OMG so I ran into Steven in the mall and he actually stopped to talk to me. It was really enjoyable. We have been iming like crazy and I am pretty much madly in love with him.

I am going to see Bloc Party tomorrow with Aric and Dana. I am pretty amped. I have been trying to see them for like a year.

Next week I am going down to Texas again to visit UT Dallas. Its a little surreal that I will pick my school after this visit. Any tips of things I should look for when choosing a college?

Things aren't great but they aren't bad. I actually am doing pretty okay. Physically I have been feeling really good about myself. Although, my sleep weirdness is coming back.

Btw Skins is fucking amazing. And I fucking love THE OC and DVR it and watch it 6 days a week.