You wear your every last disguise; You're flying, then you fall through.

So I went to a party with Steven yesterday.
His friends are so nice and his mom and his mom's friends said that they really liked me.
They also said we were perfect together.
His friend's mom was like "Steven you should just go to school in Texas. This is too perfect"
Oh how my heart breaks.

I also did something really stupid last night and felt like such a doofus.
Steven was really sweet about it though.
Despite the fact that he is mean 90% of the time that other 10% he is such a doll.
He is always quick to apologize and say that things aren't my fault and really comfort me.
He won't leave me until I look him in the eyes and say I'm okay. Then give him a "proper" kiss.
Then he follows up several times. And I never admitted but it feels so good. My whole life everyone has just taken my fake "I'm fine"s and never care enough to prod. He prods and I act annoyed but it really does mean alot to me.
Oh God I like him so much.

Who ever said Summer Lovin' was a blast. LIED. Its heart wrenching.