Clichè college identity crisis

I haven't posted a lot since college has begun and I'm sorry about that. I am on break now. So I am one semester down and I have to say, I ended it on a weird note. I don't think I posted as much because I wanted to "live" instead of think. It didn't work. I lived a little too much and didn't think enough. I feel really lost. This semester kinda gave me a fun house image of myself. I feel like people see a warped version of me here. I wanted so desperately to change and fix the flaws I had I went too far. I wanted to be a different person in college. Now I am stuck between two versions of myself. In some ways I feel like I need some sort of salvation. But who can save me? I tried saving myself, maybe its time I found someone to lean on. But who? I just got lost. It's funny I used to be amazing with maps. Now the only I can't find is myself.